Some Random Sunday Thoughts

1. I’m way too awesome in the kitchen to be single. Seriously. Also, there are few things more rewarding than dancing around in my panties to Lady Gaga as I’m licking the spoon to the most delicious chocolate pudding dessert I’ve ever made. *dances around*

2. I still got it. After months and months of not having sex, I was starting to worry that “if you don’t use it, you’ll lose it” was true. It’s not; I confirmed that I’m still awesome this weekend, hehe. Friends with benefits = amazing. You know, a few months ago, I decided I didn’t want to do that with anyone anymore, but at the end of the day…it makes me feel awesome about myself and it’s a ton of fun with someone I trust, so if that’s not respecting myself, I don’t know what is.

3. Financially, my life is…wow. Finally starting to be where I want it to be! I have a savings account now – and there’s money in it! I’m able to take a trip to Florida in May without scraping by. My credit card debt is decreasing every month. Best of all, I’ve started saving to buy land of my own. I’m thinking upstate New York, and my dad may go in on it with me so that I’ll have a house with a lot of land (where he can hunt occasionally). My own home! It makes me all tingly with excitement. *dances around even more*

4. I feel like I’ve turned this major corner with understanding myself and what I want in life as far as romance. I’m always going to have “downs,” and the right guy for me is going to not only understand that, but pull me back up again. Not in a dependency way, but in a way where he knows to chill out and give me hugs, waiting it through, instead of reading too much into every little part of my life and making me feel like I’m crazy. Someone who can do that will be a very special person indeed. He doesn’t need to save me, just hold my hand.

5. Even if it is rainy, the weather is beginning to be beautiful every single day. It’s warm, it’s light out later, and the world is starting to be green again. That’s a reason to dance if I ever heard one!

6. It is soon wine festival season, which is my favorite time of year. And I’ve decided that when the first one does come around, I’m going to invite The Cowboy to come with us (there’s usually a huge group of us that goes), no strings attached. If he says no, reads too much into it, blah blah blah, whatever… that’s his loss. *shrug* I’m no longer afraid that he’ll think badly of me or something. His opinions of me don’t make me who I really am, and hopefully he’ll put his past judgments aside and just opt for an afternoon of fun. It’s just a great time, nothing more, nothing less. Wine festival = no drama! There’s nothing I’d love more than to lay in the grass, sipping out of a bottle, and listen to music with all of my favorite people.

7. I haven’t seen The Student in…months and months! That needs to change, I miss his face.

That’s all for today. Last thought for you all: We’re fools whether we dance or not…so we might as well dance.