I need to be fucked.
I don’t just mean the old in-out routine. I don’t mean kissing and foreplay and hugging and snuggling. I just need a good fucking.
The kind where he’s behind me, pulling my hair, slapping my ass, fucking my wet, little cunt harder and harder until my screams are slicing through the hot night air, waking the neighbors and making them jealous.
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I find it really hard to be submissive sometimes. Sometimes part of submission is knowing that you don’t get fucked every night, that you’re serving your master, not yourself. I feel really in tune with my body sometimes, and I forget that it belongs to him. I always feel really down about things when I feel like I need sex. I know I don’t NEED sex. I need him, and he needs me…the physicality of our relationship is just a fringe benefit.
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And yet my pussy’s wet and waiting. I want him to grab my hips, pull me hard against him, slamming into me again and again. I want to be his fucking sex toy, my cunt for his pleasure, tightening around his thick cock with even thrust.
Hearing him breathing, grunting low, the smell of sex, of man and of me in the air. His fingers are entwined in my hair, wrapping the strands into his fist, pulling so hard the my neck aches, freshly displaying bite marks. He scratches his nails up and down my back, and spanks me…hard. harder. HARDER.
I’m moaning, I’m screaming, I’m wailing, Oh god can I please cum?
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Love is never the issue. I never, ever, ever crave love with him. He loves me too much, I think, sometimes. I’ve never been comfortable with saying "I love you" all the time. I’ve always craved it and then not been ale to say it. With him, things are never like that. I never have to wonder when he’s next going to say he loves me. The answer is simple – the next time he talks to me.
Fucking is different. I don’t know when its coming, or if its coming at all. Some days, I don’t feel very secure about my place in this relationship, not because I’m not loved, but because I’m not entirely comfortable in a submissive role. I really need someone to play a strong dominant, and I’m not sure that’s him. And I mean, that’s Ok. I guess I don’t NEED it. I just crave it because I’m new to this whole submission thing. I want direction. I want someone to take full ownership of me.
I get jealous sometimes, reading other submission sites. I know that they aren’t always submersed in it, but I feel like I’m lost sometimes. I can’t switch it off. Being submissive is who I was meant to be. Yet, he doesn’t always have time to be dominant. Or, rather, he doesn’t display it, doesn’t allow me to display my submission.
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Please can I cum? Please? Please? Please….fuuuuuuuck….
He spanks me again, fucking me faster, and I feel his legs tense, holding back. He grabs me, pulls me, swings me around and fucks my face. I’m gasping for air, choking, my mouth hungry, made for his cock. Fuck me faster, Daddy. He pinches my nose and slaps me, fucking my slut face. My pussy aches.
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I don’t know what I want. I don’t know what I need. I don’t know if HE knows what I want or need. I wish he did. I wish he could make me feel better about my role in life, but really, I think that might be something I need to do myself.
Until I find my place, at least I know that I am loved. That’s not something many people can say, and it is something I’m grateful for every single day.
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Rori is the founder of Between My Sheets. She works full time as a writer, reviewer, and online educator and can be reached at rori-at-betweenmysheets.com
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Well, I volunteer for the task!
Hehe, Tom Paine, you can come visit any day!
This is absolutely beautiful. I’ve felt the same thing (I’m very dominant in my vertical life but long to be, and yet struggle with, the submissive, horizontal me that feels so much more natural in so many ways) but have never been able to say it nearly as well. Whatever the case, it is a delicious struggle that I’d not soon give up.
Your story is fascinating.
Yea, and when she’s in that mood, that’s when I love to eat her pussy after she’s just been fucked. She’s gonna have an orgasm that shoots through you like electricity… with your head pulled tight against her pussy while you’re suckin HARD! on her clit and her pussy is full of cum.