…And just like that, my plans for a lovely dinner with the new guy tonight have been ripped away. I won’t go into details here, but I will say that this was 100% out of his control and out of mine as well. Dear readers, don’t blame him. I know you have all been a bit skeptical and he’s made mistakes in the past, but this time, things are out of his control.
I might not see him again for a long time. When he does get back to town, I don’t know if he’ll remember me or be brave enough to call me.
I hate feeling helpless against a bad situation. People who know me know that I can’t stand to hear about problems without trying to come up with solutions. This time, there is no solution. I might not see him again for a long time, and there’s nothing I can do to change that. The outcome of the situation is left to fate, to God, to chance, to whatever you believe in.
Men plan and God laughs. Maybe life will surprise me again and this situation will resolve itself without issue and things will go on as planned tomorrow night instead, just a day late. Maybe.
I’m not sure I have it in me anymore to hope for something that seems unlikely.
Today…I am sad. Perhaps that’s selfish, but it’s honest. I’m sad because I wanted so very badly to be happy with him.
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