On Being Quiet, Permission, and Last Week
It’s been nearly a week.
Nearly a week since his hand ripped my panties to the side and his fingers found my clit as I sleepily spooned with him in the early-morning hours. We had to be quiet; my very Christian sister and her equally innocent boyfriend were sleeping in the next room. But I writhed against his touch, his breathing in my ear. We had to be quiet, but I wanted him hard and fast and loud.
In what felt like a “god I want you too” moment, he sat up and swung my hips around so I was on my back. My panties were off and he was between my legs with his tongue. For the first time. And, for me, for the first time in a long time with anyone. There’s just something so personal about that, I usually stop a guy from going down on me, and I never ask for it. Maybe as a result, I’ve never really had good oral. I’ve had ok oral, but until last weekend, I never really enjoyed it much.
I didn’t stop V when he pulled my pussy to his mouth. I closed my eyes and focused on every lap of his tongue, trying not to moan for fear that my sister would hear. I felt him slip a finger into my soaking wet pussy, then two or maybe even three, as he licked my warm clit. I ran my hands through that beautiful long hair that I love so much and gasped, “Don’t stop,” barely audible.
And he didn’t stop as I came for him, my hips bucking against his face as he sucked my clit. God that felt so good as I came and he sucked harder, his fingers deep in me…and before long I was cumming again, even harder.
I usually ask for permission to cum. There’s no overall rule that I have to. Many times, he’ll tell me that I’m not allowed to cum until he says so, but we don’t have a general rule that I always have to ask to orgasm. I just usually do because…I like him to have that power. It is a comfort to me to submit to someone in any way, be it orgasm control or something non-sexual. When I have a bad day, thinking about it or focusing on that helps me stay calm and clear.
But that night, nearly a week ago, I didn’t ask or permission to orgasm. I couldn’t ask. I would have screamed it, I would have cried out and woken up my neighbors, much less the people in the next room. Man, I hate being quiet.
“Are you going to take care of Daddy?” he whispered, snuggling back beside me after I came the second time. Before he was finished asking, my lips were around his hard cock. I hope I made it hard for him to be quiet too.
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Very hot
August 1st, 2009 at 1:56 pmThat was amazing! Glad you finally got satisfying oral cuz good oral is literally hard to cum by!!
August 2nd, 2009 at 6:57 pmHahha, Blackpearl, that made me laugh.
August 2nd, 2009 at 7:07 pmI love the bucking hip imagery! Sometimes there is nothing hotter than simply using your mouth to get your partner off. I just stumbled onto your blog today and I’m already an addict.
- Jay
August 4th, 2009 at 4:55 amI know exactly how you feel when you talk about orgasm control…there’s something sexy about knowing that your own pleasure is in someone else’s hands
August 9th, 2009 at 6:54 pmI find it interesting that you stop most men before they go down on you. I’ve always done the same thing. I adore giving oral, but do not like recieving it. I always thought it had something to do with being submissive. That maybe it just feels ‘off’ because I am not the one serving in that moment.
Great post. The way you write lets the reader inside your head. I love that.
August 11th, 2009 at 11:07 amJay - always nice to have someone addicted to me
History Teller - Yeah, I absolutely love him having control. Sometimes, it makes me nuts in the moment, but the feeling of just releasing that control to him is so freeing and comforting.
brook - Thanks for stopping by!!! So glad you’re back! Maybe you’re right and my non-love of oral is about being submissive…because I loooooooove sucking my Daddy’s cock. Thanks for your kind words
August 15th, 2009 at 5:30 amohh very dirty
November 27th, 2009 at 2:31 pmGreat post the way you write really lets me understand whats in your head.
November 27th, 2009 at 2:37 pmThanks