Can you believe it? In less than a month, I’ll be moving to live near MM, this wonderful, sexy, amazing person that I just cannot do without. I don’t say that lightly, either. MM has been in my life for about a year and a half, and I spent a lot of time resisting the urge to care about him, to love him.

But I do. I do love him, maybe not in the romantic way just yet, that beyond-puppy-love deep love that couples mean when they say “I love you.” But I certainly love him in my own Rori way. He makes me smile when I think about him, and I’m always happier when I hear from him during the day.

Soon, so very soon, it will be possible for us to hang out as often as we’d like. It will definitely be a big change, and I think it will truly help him figure out his life. For better or worse, at least in terms of what that means for me, it’s a good thing. I don’t like limbo. If moving near him helps him decide that he needs to be with his wife even if he is unhappy, that will be okay. My heart will break, but a broken heart can mend.

But if instead it helps him decide that he wants to be with me…all the better. It’s a path I certainly hope he takes, but not one that I’m allowing myself to think will happen. I don’t want my hopes to be sky-high, because at the end of the day, I don’t want to resent him if that’s not the decision he makes.

God, though…I can’t wait to fuck him again. I can’t wait to feel him inside me and look into his eyes and have more perfect moments like we did back in January. It really was the best sex of my life. Nothing else even comes close. I want to see if it was because we were releasing the tension that had been building between us for over a year or if it really is that good when we’re together. I certainly hope the latter!

So yeah…as the title of this post says…I CAN’T WAIT!

My job as a freelance writer/blogger is pretty sweet, but the best job in the world? I think that title will go to the couple who win Your Pleasure Zone’s Sex Toy Tester competition. Hundreds of couples applied, and the toy retail site has narrowed it down to two: Mel and Steph from Birmingham (pictured at right) versus Jamie and Ella from Sussex (picture at left…and it’s up to us to decide the winner!

The couple receiving the most public votes will become sex toy testers for Your Pleasure Zone, trying out the latest toys so that the site sells only the best of the best. The couple will post a video review every week, and toys that receive at least a 7 out of 10 will be up for grabs on the website.

Voting ens April 1, so to meet the couples and cast your ballot head to the competition’s finale page before time runs out!

What girl out there doesn’t have at least the occasional fantasy of one guy between her legs and two more guys giving attention to each of her nipples? That’s what the Triple Super Suck Her from the Festish Fantasy Series tries to stimulate. It was part of the package I received from Adult Sex Toys (along with the OhMiBod, which was my top toy pick in 2010), and frankly, it was the one I was most excited to try out.

True story: My nipples used to be super, super, SUPER sensitive. Like to the point where I didn’t enjoy any kind of nipple sucking at all. These days, my nipples are still sensitive, but I actually enjoy it.

Ok, let’s talk about the Triple Super Suck Her. It’s comparable to a number of other clit and nipple suckers on the market – made of jelly (which is not my favorite), with vibrating features (which is awesome) and a ball pump. This company actually includes free samples of lube and toy cleaner, as well as batteries, so that gets the thumbs up from me for sure. And, I definitely like the pink color. Yeah, I’m a girl.

Like I said, jelly is not my favorite material, but I think it’s what makes the most sense, since suckers need to be really flexible to fit many body types. Each sucker (clit and two nipples) had its own little vibrator, which was nice since some of the vibrating suckers only have clit vibes attached.

Now for the major disadvantage – it was hard to use. Keep in mind that I’m a single chick – if you have a partner, your experience might be different, but for me…well, I didn’t have enough hands to get everything lined up and start sucking very easily. When I did, it felt GREAT…but if there’s not a good seal on all three pieces, it doesn’t work at all.

I would have liked there to be some options – for example, maybe JUST used the clit part. But since all three pieces have to be sealed for it to create suction, it doesn’t really work to just use the clit piece. Maybe you could try suctioning the nipple pieces against a wall? It seems like a lot of hassle to me. I don’t have a bathtub right now, so I couldn’t try it out there, but the packaging says that it is waterproof and it might be easier to work with the suctioning parts in that situation.

I definitely like the quick release button. If you’ve never played with suction toys before, it can be intense, so it’s a way to stop the sucking sensation immediately. That’s especially important to me as a sub. I like that the play can stop immediately if I say the safe word.

All in all, I was a little disappointed. While it felt great when it was sealed and working, the pieces slipped a lot and it was hard to use by myself. The price is reasonable, but the jelly material is hard to keep clean and there was no variety in vibrations. The Triple Super Suck Her definitely a toy to consider if you have a partner, but perhaps not the best option for a single lady.

This weekend, I traveled to visit some friends of mine, including MM. I’m actually moving to the area where they all live, so I did some apartment hunting as well. It was one of the most roller coaster weekends of my life. And it was perfect.

First of all, the time with my friends was amazing. I’ve been friends with them since I was in kindergarten (yes, you read that correctly), and whenever we all get together, it’s like we’re in high school again (but with run in our cokes this time around, haha). They all live within an hour of one another, and I definitely am looking forward to being able to see them more often.

But you all don’t read BMS to hear about me hanging out with my friends, did you?

So what happened with MM?

Sigh.

That’s a happy sign and a sad sigh and a scared sigh all in one.

My friends and I went out for happy hour on Friday night, and MM met us there. He’s met some of my friends before, but I ended up getting a little lost along the way, so he spent a lot of time with them alone before I even got there. I was worried that it would be awkward, but it sounds like my friends really like him (and he definitely likes them). When I finally got there, we all just hung out and had a blast. I had parked several blocks away, so he gave me a ride back to my car and there was a little peck goodnight, but one of my friends was with us as well and we didn’t want to make her feel awkward. We made plans to go out Saturday with his friends instead.

And we did. He picked me up around 7, and then we picked up his best friend and his best friend’s girlfriend and the four of us went to dinner and then out to a bar. It was a blast. I had met his friend before, but not the girlfriend – but we got along really, really well and even talked about a potential roommate situation (this was before I had confirmed that I got the place I wanted). I had a lot of rum, and MM had a lot of beer, and we danced and flirted and had so much fun. There was a little groping going on, which was nice, but we were also trying to play it at least somewhat cool, since his best friend also knows and is friendly with his wife.

At the end of the night, we drove his friends home and then he took me back to the place where I was staying. We parked at 2:30 AM. We talked until 5:30 AM. In that time, we talked about what was going on with him and his wife, how we both were feeling about it, and what was going to happen when I moved. The answer is, “I don’t know. I don’t know. I don’t know.”

I cried a lot because I’m frustrated that I have no say. No matter how awesome I am, it won’t make a different. Things are going to happen the way they’re going to happen with him and his wife, and I just have to wait and see. I’m pretty much at the mercy of whatever they decide.

And it stinks, because he’s quick to say, “I don’t want this to give you hope” when he talks to me about stuff…but when we’re not wearing serious face, when we’re just hanging out, he also talks about how much he wants to kiss me, how he wants to take me to Europe, how I’m his very best friend. We talked about that, and I think he’s super confused about it because on one hand he really doesn’t want to get my hopes up, but on the other hand, according to him, when he says those things, it is what is really in his heart.

I talked about how I’m worried that if things work out with him and his wife, he’ll decide that it is too hard to be around me and he’ll leave. I talked about how I’m not sure that I can get over my feelings and be “just friends,” I’m worried that those feelings won’t fade for me like they would for him. I talked about how it worries me that even if things to work out in my favor, so to speak, that he won’t be ready for a relationship again for a long time and may never want to get married, which is something I want.

He talked a lot too about his feelings and frustrations and fears. I won’t go into all of that hear, since I feel like I should respect his privacy in certain matters, but suffice to say, I wasn’t the only one talking.

But yeah, we talked about things for oh…what? Three hours about all of this, and in the end I’m not sure much was resolved. But he knows exactly how I feel, and I know that he’ll fiercely protect me from getting hurt, at least as much as he can. I think right now, that’s all we can ask – just to see where things go and know that life always has a way of working out for the best.

The night ended with some long, passionate kisses on the doorstep. I miss them already. I’m hungry for them again. They are perfect.

This weekend, I think I might have fallen in love. I’m trying not to let that happen until things are figured out in life, but it’s not something that is easily stopped.

Okay, I have to admit that I feel a little like Cosmopolitan writing this post. Seriously, is it just me, or so they have “The Top 100 Sex Tip” in every single issue, just repackaged with a different skin. 100 Ways to Make Him Moan. 100 Things that Will Blow His Mind in Bed. 100 Things He Really Wants You to Do in Bed. It’s usually the same old stuff every time, though. Or at least, it used to be I haven’t picked up an issue of Cosmo in years.

But nevertheless, I wanted to post my list of blow job secrets, just little things that I throw into every bj to make it special. Of course, I don’t do every tip every time – I like to spice things up – but these things always seem to get a good reaction!

Oh, and please leave at least one tip at the end: if you do the sucking, what have you done to drive him wild? If you’re the suck-ee, what’s something a girl (or guy) has done that made you totally want to lose it?

1. Put a little bit of soda in your mouth as just before you start to suck. Sprite or something else that is super carbonated works the best. Feel all that bubble-bursting on your tongue? Yeah, that’s what he feels on his cock.

2. Suck on an ice chip as you blow him. The combination of hot and cold is really awesome. Just make sure to move around the ice a lot in your mouth, following it with your tongue. If you hold it against a single spot, it can start to have a numbing effect (not good).

3. This one involves a little searching, but if you can find them, buy some pop rocks to suck on as you’re also sucking on him. Like the soda, it’s a cool popping sensation on his cock.

4. Take the the tip in your mouth and use your tongue to flick the spot right where the head meets the shaft. For some reason, I’ve found on most guys that this is a super sensitive spot that feels awesome when it gets a little extra attention.

5. Can’t deep throat? The next best thing: lick all around his shaft, making him super wet, then take in as much as you can and wrap your hand around the rest, squeezing tightly as you suck.

6. Tease him. Just before taking his cock in your mouth, like the tip and blow on it gently. Try doing that on your own finger right now – see, it creates a cooling sensation.

7. Be super enthusiastic. Note: I’ve been told time and time and time again that this is BY FAR the best thing a girl can do when it comes to giving a blow job.

8. Hold a small vibrator at the base, just above his balls, as you suck. (For some guys this is way too intense – depends on his preferences – but for others it is mind-blowingly awesome.)

9. Be super vocal. This goes along with #7, being enthusiastic. Moan, gasp, and beg for his cock down your throat. The more fun you’re having, the more fun he’ll have, and as an added bonus, if you moan while he’s in your mouth, the vibrations will feel great.

10. Give his balls some lovin’. Again, for some guys this is way too intense, but I’ve found that most love it – and I’ve been told often that a lot of girls don’t give balls any attention at all during a blow job, other than a little fondling. If he’s not too sensitive, play with his balls with your tongue. I like to pop them in and out of my mouth really quickly, sucking on the firmly (but gently, don’t get too rough!).

Ok – your turn. Give us your best blow job technique or the best thing someone’s ever used on you!