Ok – I guess I owe you all some updates on my dates! Some interesting things have happened in the last few days!

“The Friend” – As you’ll remember, this was the guy I’ve been out with, but only as friends because he lived so far away. I recently found out that he was moving back here, which is cool, and we’ve kept up with the emails back and forth. Nothing really to report, I guess!

“Sushi Guy” – Still hasn’t talked to me! (disappointed face) It’s weird that he blew me off now, after talking to me for the first few days after our date.

“Drama Guy” – This one is dead and buried. Ok, so just HOURS after my last post, he messages me, all sweet about things, and is talking to me. I’m responding. He asks me if I want to grab food with him, and I say (truthfully) that I already ate and that I’m under a deadline, but I wish I could – maybe we could the next day instead. He’s disappointed, but nice. After getting back from eating, he starts talking about how funny it is that he thought I was the perfect girl for him at first, and how he now never even thinks about me. Yeah, ok. So, I’m nice, I say, yeah, we’re probably better off just as friends, and if something develops from there, cool…but let’s not try to force it. He rambles on for a few minutes about how much we have in common and blah blah blah, and then suddenly says “ok, well goodbye. have a nice life.” What the hell? This was after telling me that very morning that he still wanted to be friends??? I’m sorry, but I don’t let shit like that go, and I told him off. I told him exactly what I thought – that’s he’s a huge drama queen and there’s a reason he’s single. Among other things. Harsh? Maybe…but whatever. That really pissed me off. And then I told him to leave me the hell alone and I blocked him from messaging me or calling me. SOOOO worth it. That was a bullet I dodged, I’m certain.

“Sports Guy” – Oh. My. Lord. Seriously, how do you have a bad date when you go to an awesome restaurant and a fun sports event? SOMEONE TELL ME!!! I feel so bad, because this guy dropped over $100 on a date with me (and hey, I offered multiple times to pay for dinner or my own ticket). But really, I had a bad time. He says he had a good time, and seemed disappointed that he didn’t get a goodnight kiss, but he hasn’t called me or messaged my since (it has been two days), so maybe he had just as bad of a time. I felt like I was talking to a plank of wood or a wet towel or a glass of milk or something. He was just sooooooooo not my type at all. Nice guy, but totally not me. I’m actually hoping he had a bad time too, so that I don’t have to try to let him down nicely. That’s what you get when you date online, I guess.

IN OTHER NEWS…

There was this guy who I used to to talk to, and I was actually really interested in him. Small world, he knew some of my friends and actually started a new job teaching where I went to high school (really weird, I know). Then, after wanting to go out with him sometime for a few months, he started acting weird-ish. Then, suddenly, he disappeared. I found out that he was seeing someone, but it made me sad that he felt like he couldn’t talk to me anymore just because of that.

WELL two days ago, out of the blue, he messages me! He says he fucked up, and that he’s sorry he left. He missed me. He was afraid that I was only interested in talking to him if he was single (which is not the case). He’s still with the girlfriend, but I can tell you right now that it won’t last. She totally blew him off this weekend, and he already said that his mom doesn’t like her. That’s a big deal to a lot of people. So, yeah…I think we’re meeting for coffee or lunch – as friends – on Sunday. That should be interesting. Honestly, I don’t want to be responsible for people breaking up, but at the same time, he came to me again in part because he was confused about her, and wanted someone to talk to. Of all the people I know, all the guys I’ve talked to, this is the guy that I think holds the most potential. So…we’ll see! Story of my life, right? :-p

Oh, and he DOES know about my kinks, and understands them. And I know about his too hehe. I don’t think that he’d ever be someone who would have a slave or want to be called master, but I do think that he’s someone who would very comfortably fall into the roll of giving me what I need in a d/s relationship…and the other way around too. I think I would fit very nicely with his kinks. More on those later, if I ever get to that point with him!

But yeah, he may not want to humiliate me or keep my on a leash, but I do know that he can give me the “daddy” aspects I crave – teaching, protection, devotion in return for adoration, support, strength. We’ve actually talked about it at length, which I think is a really good thing!

I feel like a total newbie on the dating scene. I know, I know – it has been quite a few months since D and I broke it off. I think, though, that when you completely trust and give yourself to someone like you do in a D/s relationship, it takes time to get over that. To be fair, I’ve kept an open mind…but really, I didn’t want to date anyone, even on a casual level, until I was sure that it wouldn’t just be a rebound.

So, ok I’ve been out a little. And have some prospects on the horizon. I’ve left you all totally in the dark, I know, so maybe I should clue you in!

Date #1: I’m going to call this my non-date, which was actually a perfect way to re-enter the dating scene. He grew up around here, but doesn’t live here anymore because he got moved from work. BUT he asked if I wanted to hang out just for the evening sometime when he was in town visiting family, since he doesn’t know tons of people around here anymore either. No pressure for anything beyond friendship. Perfect. The non-date actually went really well. We definitely got along, and had a good time doing dinner and a movie together (we both paid for ourselves, for the record, so it really was a non-date). We have been exchanging emails every week or so since then, so I guess I can officially call him a friend. However, I just found out that he’s moving back to this area – got a job that he applied for that he wanted! So…now that opens all kinds of doors for “more than friends” if we want, I guess. He’s a nice enough guy, and cute, so I won’t rule that out, but I don’t know how he feels about it. I guess we’ll see!

Date #2: Ok, this one really was a date. He asked me out for sushi, and I said yes, meeting him there (I’m weird about guys knowing where I live or driving me places on a first date). We actually had a really great time! At the end of the date, I’m like, 99% sure that he would have kissed me, but I actively didn’t let that happen, because I’d rather things move slowly in my life this time around. We talked over AIM and on the phone during the next few days, and we both said how much fun we had and how we need to hang out again. Then, I went to visit my parents for a few days (no cell reception or net access) and he was on call for work (so very short on time) for a week…and all communication has stopped. I texted him a few times, but nothing. I’m really disappointed in that, because we had TONS in common and really had an awesome time on our date. I’m hesitant to try to contact him again, though, because I don’t want to seem desperate.

Date #3: This is the date that never happened. A really sweet guy emailed me through an online dating service (yes, I do online dating, so what). We exchanged a ton of messages and eventually I gave him my IM name. After chatting for a few hours, though, he seemed to get really smitten. And hey, I have no problem with someone thinking I’m cool, but it was a little much, and I told him that I liked him, but couldn’t return the feelings he had. After all, I never even met the guy face to face! He got really agitated about things, especially when I wouldn’t break plans I already had to hang out with him. Then he said that fine, if I wasn’t willing to make him a priority, he wasn’t interested in romantically pursuing me. It was a lot of unnecessary drama if you ask me. THEN last night, he drunkenly tries to get me to come over to his house for some NSA sex. (I declined.) He still messages me online a lot (we’re talking at least once or twice a day), and we really do have a lot in common, so who knows. I’m not holding my breath for that one though. I don’t need drama in my life.

Date #4:  This is the date that is happening on Wednesday! Actually, we initially planned to go out tonight, just for dinner, but I asked if we could postpone, because last night I was still feeling like crap. He was really nice about it and suggested instead that we go to a hockey game on Wednesday night. I’m sooooooo excited for that, since I love sports, and I’m actually really flattered that he’s spending that much money on me (tickets are like, $60) for a first date.

Alright, so we’ve got “the friend” who might be something more now that he’s back in the areas, “sushi guy” who has disappeared but I’m not totally giving up on since I really liked him, “drama guy” that I’m pretty much counting out (but we’ll see, I give people the benefit of the doubt), and now “sport guy” on the horizon. My dating life is no longer barren – yay!

Now, one thing you may ask is this – do these guys know that I’m into submission. Well, drama guy does, though I don’t think he knows the extent of it, and both sushi guy and sports guy know that I’m into sexuality, and are open to things, but we haven’t fully discussed yet.

I’m interested to see how this all will play out.

Oh, and D is moving back in April. So things are about to get interesting.

You know what happens when you work at home? Your immune system gets used to the somewhat isolation. You know what THEN happens when you get a new job around a group of people notorious for runny noses, coughs, and upset tummies?

Yeah.

So my new part-time job is a lot of fun…but after working there for just FIVE days, I caught a cold. And not just a little stuffed up nose. I’m talking that I FELL into bed last night around 7 PM and couldn’t even find the strength to crawl out until around 3 PM today. I feel like death. I look like death. I even sound like death (so says D when I talked to him on the phone).

How much does that such that I had to call off work already? My boss said not to worry, that almost everyone who works there gets sick within the first few weeks, but I feel like such a schmuck. I don’t like having to call off work at all, let alone after just starting a job.

And I really don’t like being sick. Who does?

Bleh.